My cousin J got married to his sweetheart A on Friday (16th Oct) and they held a wedding dinner. I never really fancied weddings that involved relatives. You get the usual questioning of “When will it be your turn?” And I also got the, “Why have you not been coming out?”. I smiled and ignored as much as I could.
The school projects and study has been crazy, the work at work has been incompleted. Dates of friend’s birthdays have been forgotten and promises made a few months before had been dragged even longer. Books that I said I would read have been sitting on the shelf collecting dust.
People at work that are like big sisters and brothers giving me their perspective of my life. Sometimes I wonder if I am stuck in this job because I feel comfortable here and I know how to get things done. People tell me to hang till the end of the year before I make any changes. Lately a lot of changes are happening and I can see that more responsibility is being put on me to help with the transitioning but I think of what Q said of how she loves what she does but it’s the environment that is killing and demoralising everyone’s spirit. I don’t feel the same passion as she does with my work.
Maybe I should really fill out the forms and send them all out… What have I to lose anymore?
